What a mistake of my birth?

God, what a mistake of my birth?
Mothers who have to work hard
The father who goes
families who do not get along

Why did you let me be born into the world when many people are hurt?
I do not want to hurt you, God
I often do not carry out all your orders
I often complain about what you give
 
I just wanted to be a holy baby heavenly host
always close to you without hurting you
without hurting and hurt
without sin with the envy.